Unending love, Amazing grace

Another year..New Year..2012!

2012-01-16T06:15:00.000-08:00

Just realized i've only posted one post last year..well actually life has been treating me well last year and now here is 2012..people come and go in my life, things changed and sometimes it was too late when the time i realized. Another year..the brand NEW year..welcome the 2012 dear! Praise God for all the memorable days, remarkable moments, guidance and strength! Blessed with friends around me and walked into my 2011 lifebook! Wishing you have a wonderful year ahead *wink wink*

7 Stations of 'I AM'

2011-04-15T10:25:00.000-07:00

I was invited to the 7 stations of 'I AM' statement solo journey tonight at SIB KL. This journey has been taken alone throughout all 7 stations and once again i was reminded of Christ's unending love & amazing grace!

The 7 'I AM' statements of CHRIST :

Station 1 : "I am THE WAY, THE TRUTH & THE LIFE"
Reading : John 14:5-14
Reflection : Do you really know, believe and live in "The Way, the Truth, and the Life?"

Station 2 : "I am the DOOR"
Reading : John 10:1-10
Reflection : Who/what is the 'DOOR' of your life? safety? security? comfort? fullfillment?

Station 3 : "I am the GOOD SHEPHERD"
Reading : John 10:11-18
Reflection : Do you know the Good Shepherd? Do you know His voice?

Station 4 : "I am the LIGHT"
Reading : John 8:12-30
Reflection : 1. What is clouding your light?
2. What is your focus?
3. Who are you? What light is in you?
4. What do you do in the darkest places?
5. What are you allowing to enter your eyes?

Station 5 : "I am the BREAD OF LIFE"
Reading : John 6:25-29
Reflection : What's our priorities on earth?
What then can sustain life, your life, daily?

Station 6 : "I am the RESURRECTION & THE LIFE"
Reading : John 11:1-44
Reflection : What are the "stones of unbelief" that are shutting your heart?
Jesus said, "roll the stone away.."

Station 7 : "I am the TRUE VINE"
Reading : John 15:1-17
Reflection : Will you remain in the True Vine, The Giver of Life, The "I AM" who is present
with you and in you?

All 7 stations had great impact for me but what really spoke to me personally was station 3. The LORD is my shepherd. I walked on a feet massage stone-like pathway, felt painful physically and yet cried to God once i saw a little note ahead which stated : 'Jesus. the Shepherd, He knows, He cares and He lays down His life for you'..I am not alone throughout this life journey! Praise God for the affirmation..the good shepherd knows and owns His sheep..must humble myself before the LORD seek for His forgiveness & guidance. I had a wonderful reflection time and an intimacy prayer session with dear LORD..thank you!

May God bless all hands that helped in the preparation of this meaningful journey and may this sharing will be a blessing of your life too *Hugz*

The hibernation~

2010-12-28T08:44:00.000-08:00

Thank God for the long awaited holidays! I was on night shift on last monday and started my long holiday from 22/12/2010 till next year...wow was a contented and meaningful the whole last week. Worked as a voluntary for the 'Gift from Heaven' community project on wednesday..felt contented when u've serving the others and helped those needy...praise God for this precious opportunity and used me! Went to watched The chronicle of Narnia 3 with friend on thursday, attended a cell group celebration of a friend at night then rushed to a supper with church members..was a great experienced and received my very first few christmas presents! went to bangsar village purposely for the Tallest christmas tree in Asia (7 metres high and made using 850,000 Lego bricks) in the christmas eve afternoon..hehe attended a cousin's wedding at night. We had a great youth musical performance in church on the blessed christmas day...thank God there were 7 individuals accepted Christ as their saviour during the altar call! wow what a precious gift! schedule has yet come to an end..taught children sunday school on 26/12/2010 and had a youth meeting till almost evening then rushed for a buddy's gathering till night. Thankful for wonderful and gracious week...though it was tiring and time flies but i experienced God's accompany everyday! Finally i started to clean up my messy bedroom and preparing to welcome a new beginning and renewal of everything in the new year yesterday! hmm what a great feeling today once i woke up and found out my bedroom looks different! bought a few christian living-related books today and had a pretty comfortable sharing with a friend during dinner time. so so so...what's next for tmr schedule? hmm planning to have self-retreat the whole day and need to attend a youth bbq gathering at night...praying for a fruitful one and really have to spend more time with God and seek for the renewal of everything in this long break...hehe very excited and just wanted to leave a post in today *.* A blessed christmas to YOU and remember we are the reason for this season...cheers!

幸福在轉角

2010-11-21T06:09:00.000-08:00

今年我们有个圣诞音乐会，主题是：“你，听到了吗？”

而我必须唱这首歌。当我第一次听到这首歌时，感觉上它是唱给我听。。我破碎的心再也不可被伤害，我真的很累了。圣经说：“爱里没有惧怕，爱即完全就要把惧怕除去。”这也是我天天祈求神的力量，医治和更新的，谢谢主你的安慰！

主，求你让我们用從天父而來的愛把懼怕挪開發現幸福在轉角與我们相遇一瞬間這世界變的好美。。。只因为你先爱我们！而我。。。听到了！

我想這世代的確是缺少了很多愛, 很多人都怕付出了卻受傷害吧
但是我們基督徒有從神而來的愛我們可以付出不用怕受傷
所以放膽去愛吧從身邊的人開始
讓每個角落都有愛你的一个小小的关心和拥抱能有你想像不到的能力！

愛可以再更多一點點

我可以擁有全世界卻沒有愛我可以明白所有事卻還是空白
我可以用信心移山卻還是孤單這世界沒有了愛一切仍是黑白
不要埋藏在心裡把愛說出來不要默默在一旁把愛活出來
喔愛可以再更多一點點不怕被傷害把靈魂鎖起來
愛可以再更多一點點從天父而來的愛把懼怕挪開
發現幸福在轉角與你相遇一瞬間這世界變的好美

My 23rd Day

2010-09-28T09:14:00.000-07:00

I was tired physically and spiritually today..read my devotion today and would want to share it here..

KNOWING GOD'S WILL

''Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small ids the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." Matthew 7:13-14

God has a will or a plan for each one of us. He knows what is best for us, even beyond our own expectation for ourselves. God doesn't want us to miss His plans for our lives. However, when we follow our own desires and ignore His will, we are not following what is best for our lives and we end up hurting ourselves, and sometimes the loved ones around us as well.

It may seem easier to ignore God's will, but it is a false path-a lie that Satan would like us to believe. In our lives we have found that it isnt as hard to know God's will as to do God's will. The knowledge seems easier than the action. By reading God's letter to us and by asking Him to show us His way, we can see that God wants only the best for oour lives. then we need to move out on faith in that direction. If we meet detour along the way, we just detour and keep on moving in the right direction. God's will is not always a straight line; sometimes there are curves in the way. Just keep on moving.

What to Pray For

I asked for a bread and got a stone;
I used the stone to grind the grain
That made the flour to form the bread
That I could not obtain.
Instead of asking Him to give
The things for which we pray,
All that we need to ask
From God isthis : Show us the way.

Father God, help us to have a discerning spirit when it comes to knowing Your plan for our lives.
Give us stregth, comfort and wisdom to study instructions for our time here on earth. Our prayers will bring us into contact with You and Your Holy Spirit. Thank you for being so concerned for us that You have a perfect plan just for us. Amen.

Micah Challenge 2010

2010-09-19T07:17:00.000-07:00

10.10.10, hmm what a special date! What's your plan on this special sunday? Ever heard about the MICAH challenge 2010 (10.10.2010)? It's a call to encourage christians everywhere to join the Micah's 2010 campaign. It's a way to gather all sons and daughters of Christ to speak out what is on God's heart.

"To do justly, to love mercy and do walk humbly with our God.." Micah 6:8

My church will print out the Micah's campaign tee and will organise a morning prayer meeting on 10.10.2010 to get into this meaningful campaign! Let's raise our hands for the poor, as YOU have shown us your heart!!!

Third Day of September

2010-09-03T06:57:00.000-07:00

Since 3 years ago...the third day of september is the day i wouldnt be looking forward to...hoping this year will be different and purposely took half day off to stay at home..but believe me life didnt go according to the plan. Finally, unforgetable events happen again today! how come...is it coincidence? hmm how i wish could just skip it..should spend time to place everything in the right track again...pray hard and learn to be obedience..going to sleep early today as need to wake up about 3 plus morning to climb Broga Hill to watch SunRise! A brand new day for tomorrow...amen *-*

Mightier than ALL

2010-08-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

SANCTUARY

When my world was in darkness
You spoke Your word
Night turned into day
Your beauty filled this place

When my world stood in silence
You filled my heart
With songs that never end
Forever I will praise

To think that the universe
Could not withhold Your glory
You choose to live in me
I'm so amazed

(and) I worship you lord
My life in You restored
Here is my heart
Make it Your sanctuary
For nobody else
But Jesus only (You)

You are faithful and true
Glorious lord
All my life
It is You I adore
You've touched my soul
Completed my world I surrender to You

The very first time i heard this song in a sunday service in UK about 3 years ago..it was like a prayer and desire deep in my heart...reminding me that my Heavenly Dad is so gracious and mighty. Im just not worthy for HIS unfailling love and attention but He has chosen me as His precious daughter since i was so young..im blessed to called HIM as Abba Father! I was reminded that I have Someone to turn to. He is the LORD, "Who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think" for He is greater than all of our troubles. ya thank God for restoring and renewing my soul, walking with me daily...do teach me how to love You and the others, lead me in Your righteous ways, follow & obey Your words daily! More like YOU I desire to live and grow...

2010-08-23T07:33:00.000-07:00

Read this article before departure to Kuching in June 2010,it's a good article from facebook, it reminded me that life is a learning process... would like to share with my beloved friends...may it'll be meaningful to you as well...still a long way to learn...

一个苦者找到一个老人倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
老人说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
老人让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
老人说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

你可能觉得难过
因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情
他不是看不到他只是装作看不到
或者他根本不想看到
你觉得自己很喜欢他
甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他
你用尽全力对他好
把他看的比自己还重要
有什么事情第一个就想到他
联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了
然而你有没有想过
这并不在你的责任范围
而且很有可能他是在躲着你
他受不了你对他那么好

不要一直发短信给他
不要一直找他
你也许只是想找他说说话
你觉得那很正常不算苛求
但是也许他并不这么想
记住你的想法不代表他的想法
你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗
你扪心自问一下
你确定不用他回报什么吗
那为什么你会难过
若是真的一无所求
你又怎么会觉得难过呢
所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的
也许他根本不在乎你怎么为他付出
有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担
这种负担只会让他更加想远离你
因为他不想亏欠你
别事事为他担心为他张罗
你觉得他没有你不行
你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
但是你要清楚
你不是他要的那个人
你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
那个位置本来就不是你的
你何必硬要挤上去呢

你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
喜欢他不是你的错
想关心他不是你的错
控制不住自己不是你的错
但是那是你的方式
人家不一定就能接受你这种所谓无私的爱
所以如果你喜欢他他不喜欢你
那么就请你默默的
别试图让他知道
就算你会难过甚至难过的流泪
就请你默默的
就算是逼自己也好
一定要忍着

傻孩子．
忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．
那些．都已是记忆．
缺失并不可怕．
可怕的．是无法面对．
傻孩子．
你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．
付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．
绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
那里．有你的理想．

傻孩子．
开始新的习惯吧．
习惯．每天一个人生活．
习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．
你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
现实是．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
这也是你．成长中的你．
这个你．正在逐渐死去．
新的你．即将重生．
找寻你的路．你的未来．
你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．
好．好．尽情发泄吧．
剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
泄完了．就要振作．
看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
所以．你并不孤独．
正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．
别哭．别再哭．
不值得．真的．不值得了．
把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．
生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
现在的生活．不是你想要的．
为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜……
当某天，你被伤害，想起我。那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的对你好了……
因为那时的我，已经将你放低……
原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的...

2010-07-02T18:05:00.001-07:00

My heart is aching all the time...it's painful...what shd i do? is there anyone care bout it out there? cant sleep well almost every night...help me please!

I will be there

2010-06-28T06:59:00.000-07:00

I Will be TheRe

I will be there
and you can cry on my shoulder
when the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you

And I will be there
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be there

Sounds like a song lyrics? ya this is one of my favourite song : I will be there by Steven Curtis Chapman...first time heard this song in a fren's wedding...wishing one day my significant one would sing to me...when u like it, just have no explaination!

Wat an unconditional promises and love...wondering 'life happily ever after'' still belongs to me? maybe i shall wait patiently for the right one...so when we finally meet, i know how to be grateful..i have no idea how, when and where...but i know when i meet him, God will assure me it's him...i will know deep in my heart..still waiting for the one who will sing this song dedicate to me as his promises and love to me one day, im praying for that day to appear in my life chapter and healing power towards my broken heart now! take away all the soreness and heartache.

Dear Father God, no matter what comes into my lives now, i know YOU have screened it so that your daugther is capable of handling it. Pray for your mercy and love to strengthen me...'Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart'...im sure Father God hears my prayer. Amen. From your daugther, Samantha

Cat City

2010-05-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Holiday...it's wesak day today...staying at home alone now watching astro on demand..though tmrw is saturday but gonna work 8am till 5pm =( was kinda excited...cos i'll be attending a Respiratory Conference at Kuching, Sarawak end of next month! wowo...google-ing the Cat City and cant wait to fly over there to meet up friends! =) Thank God for the arrangement...giving me a 'short holiday' to East Malaysia! Heard they said the accomodation provided it's a 5 stars hotel...hehehe...hoping for more better tmrw to come! gan bar teh tmrw!

2010-05-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

Stomachache, feeling unwell, irritable bowel movement, vomitting, spasm...i've been experiencing all these symptoms almost 6 months...keep coming on and off these year...went for blood test & ultrasound at hosp it seems im perfectly fine and healthy...ya i am! the cause of those suffering still remains mysterious! finally i've made a decision to go for colonoscopy and endoscopy...tmr is the day! i need to admit to hosp to do this so called 'simple'procedure..this term sounds familiar which i've used it thousand times to consult my patients...saying that everything will be fine and have no worry at all for your health condition. but believe me...not this time for myself...ya playing the different role now as im the one who nd to undergo all these. gosh do believe me didnt hav good rest since last week..spending times thinking wat actually happening to my poor stomach and intestine? hoping tmr will be a great day, i'll be on sedation during the procedure and wishing could sleep well during the procedure...will get a positive result after that...hmm hoping the diagnosis is just regular irritable bowel syndromes...it's time to hit the bed and face the reality tmr. now i understand more bout the definition of 'loneliness' no one could really accompany you or help you in this situation...helpless..with my fear but ya just HIM, my heavenly Father..im sure HE'll be watching me throghout the whole procedure! ^-^

2010-04-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

Finally, you are gone! Back to where you're belong...to start your desired lifestyle and new chapter of life...the path you've choice since few years back..may the Lord bless you and keep you, and be gracious to your future always!

Be MiNe, BiRthday

2010-02-22T08:38:00.000-08:00

23/02/2010 is a great day! hehe just wanna post a simple yet meaningful birthday greeting *-* Be MiN3, HaPpY BiRthday>>

WORLD VISION! What u could do..?!

2010-01-10T05:35:00.000-08:00

Child sponsor changes life! passed by a World Vision booth at Tropicana shopping mall yesterday...pay a visit for the photo exhibition and talked to one of the world vision's volunteer regarding on this monthly child sponsorship. I've heard this quite some times ago...praying that one day if i could earn money i would want to support those children...i knw i couldnt contribute my time to serve them personally but ya still hope by sposoring RM50 monthly could at least improve a little in their current lifestlye out there! Finally thank God for the merciful heart of HIS, i've decided to sign up a child sponsorship for a little gal! I felt i'm entering another chapter of my adulthood after this decision...couldnt believe God uses the ordinary me to bless them. Thankful for this partnership with HIM...hehe waiting for my little 'daughter' details information from World Vision admin staff! Let's do something to changes life!

New Year Resolution

2010-01-02T22:54:00.000-08:00

Today is the very first sunday worship service of this brand new year...received this msg from pastor..hmm wanna practise this CROSS in my life! hopefully it could motivate u as well...cheers!

C.R.O.S.S

Consistently Express

Regularly Encourage

Obendiently Avail

Supremely Serve

Selflessly Share

HAPPY 2010 New Year

2010-01-01T00:47:00.000-08:00

Happy 2010 New Year to you!!!

01.01.10...it's the time for a new beginning & dawning of new hopes!!! Thankful for this wonderful moment!

Goodbye 2009, Welcome HAPPY 2010!

2009-12-31T23:40:00.000-08:00

wow let's welcome the very first day of this brand new year 2010! everytime when it come to the end of each year, everyone seems to be excited and counting down to welcome the following brand new year, hoping life could change to better and smoother..of course it was natural..looking forward for good future! but ya we still need to do a brief thinking on our past...what was our achievements and failures in 2009...making a brief report then we could only prepare our heart to go forward to do better in 2010 with a proper plan and clear direction!

Dont want your life cycle be repeatitive in 2010, so spend sometimes to thinking for your future and work out a workable plan! It might change your 2010 life! Praying for a better future with a new year, a new chapter and a new beginning..focus and run forward to achieve wat LORD wants us to glorify His name in life! Wishing you have a blessed 2010 new year and a wonderful one! Love ya all much! *Hug*

' In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.' Proverbs 16:9

090909

2009-09-09T08:25:00.000-07:00

yes today is 9 September 2009...090909 wow what a great date! hmm felt so sweet throughout the day...hehe simply because my cousin bro and one of my fren had their ROM today...started their marriage journey in this lovely day! kept on hearing love & romance songs from the FM...in the morning and way back home from work *-* heard many couples got married today..congrat gong xi gong xi! We love because God first loved us..wishing you all happy marriage and happy dating =) *muackkk*

Happy 52nd Birthday, Malaysia!

2009-08-31T01:39:00.000-07:00

wow...today is 31/8/2009 it's Merdeka Day..hehe means another public holiday! yeah! hmm thank God it falls on monday...that means we all have a long weekend! hehe ya at first wanna to count down in front of the TV yesterday night after the family dinner but unfortunately my fever recurrent! dont know wat happen to my body nowadays...kept falling sick...please pray for my health! hmm hearing uncountable times of patrotic malaysia songs these few weeks, while shoppping in mall, makaning even driving...aiyo until one extend u would become the unforgivable malaysian if you didnt realise merdeka day is just around the corner! one morning..i heard the Satu Malaysia song sang by all AMP Stars...wow really not that bad, sang by all those DJs..consists of 4 languages in the song..after that every morning, evening...the FM kept on promoting this song non-stop till i could remember the lyric..hehe! 'Satu bangsa, satu suara, satu negara, satu irama, bersama kita capai semua, satu Malaysia!' okok...must get rid of the melody...anyway praying for our lovely country Makaysia...may God's guidances and mercy be upon this fruitful land and citizens always! HAPPY 52nd BIRTHDAY TO YOU, MALAYSIA!

Post-op

2009-08-28T19:13:00.000-07:00

hehe thanks for the kindness and gentleness of the ophtal medical office..had the minor surgery finally on the 13/8 afternoon. hmm kinda painful though he injected 3 times LA...hehe maybe my pain threshold is low. left eye recovering but yet went for kuantan mission trip on the 2nd day post-op...yo must take good care of my eye wouldnt let this happen ever again! p/s : thanks for all the concerns and phone calls from u guys! *-*

2009-08-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

Felt a bit guilty for not updating my poor blog here...life still goes on & on with the same routine...working, working and working! moreover now is the peak time for H1N1 hit..working in HSB which's playing the main role of the infectious control government hosp...everyone is hurting for diagnosis and treatment...hmm or should i hav everyone is utilising their citizen right? ya paying one ringgit registration fee and could get med for fever, cough, flu, muscle ache, vomitng...not bad ya...luckily not positive H1N1 patient cos it's kinda hard to receive tamiflu frm us...they are monitoring the usage of it and will only prescibe for high co-morbidities patient. finally i fall sick on last 2 weeks with all those h1n1-like symptoms...hehe still remember when i walked in to hosp with d mask, everyone tried to avoid me...hmm actually d feeling is not that pleasant after all (still can figure how to clear your nasal mucus after sneezing while you're wearing a mask??)..worked night shift on last thurs...when i walked in ED our pharmacy counter crowned with many patients and everyone is blocking the corridor! i supposed to work alone at that time...luckily God sent 3 pharmacists to me..they stayed back with me from 10pm till alomst 2am..hehe and 2 security guards too (cos some patients were blocking the way so nd they to control d mess) of course my prescription stats is d highest throughout last week: 270 plus patients per night (cf to normal 50 patients per night)..couldnt image if i was alone encountered that many pt! and now my left eye is inflammed due to an inner ulcer! thinking maybe my immune system is still low...kinda painful..met an opthal doc today & he suggested to hav a minor op...wan to pengsan..anyway dont think it's a good option so still on antibiotic ointment & see how's d progress later. i will be going for a kuantan trip this weeked so really dont think is d suitable time for d minor op...hopefully wouldnt have any complication!

Reminder

2009-06-11T08:14:00.000-07:00

Im having terrible backache today...from the neck til d lumbar spinal area...right leg too...couldnt stand for the pain anymore...took celebrex and fall asleep straight after work till now. I was touch with mum's small act...i didnt had my dinner but yet she knocked at my door & gave me a cup of nutrient drink, almost wanted to cry out cos due to painful condition and mum's concern..thank God for my mum! Then i online facebook for a while, saw a fren's evangelism photo in UK..it really hit my mind for being such a slumber child on earth..but yet knowing that he's doing well in there serving God faithfully, i was pleased. ya hopefully it keep on reminds me cont to serve my purpose on earth..living fully for HIM! Human being are weak...hehe you would agree wit me if u're experiencing health problem...dont you? so let the TRUTH set you free =)

2009-05-26T08:31:00.000-07:00

time flies...coludnt believe that a small changes could lead to a huge different in my life. had a terrible week...felt lost and dont know why things are not in the right track ever but ya i've made a decision. it's time for me to do something...i could do it if i really want it...i dont wan to stay at the transition state anymore...i wan to move on and step out of the miserable sad life. ya good memories are belongs to me forever but those is just memory...after 9 months already i think it's time to treat myself better...let it go and face the fact! ya the broken heart need to be heal as time goes by but i really tried my best...so i made a move on last week...doing it reluctantly but i must have faith that through the almighty one nothing is impossible..goin to take good rest now. tmr will be a brand new day =)

Night

2009-04-20T14:14:00.000-07:00

long time didnt work ED night shift...almost one month plus. nope i should've said the ED night shift schedule isnt that frequent nowadays...hehe cos we are rotating the shift among 30 plus pharmacists instead of 10 plus trainees in those days. thank god for that...hmm though have to work 10 hours at night but being Drug Info pharmacist for almost 8 months...im actually enjoying to dispense med to patients and chat with them =) aww...so many accidents cases today...the ED is packed with patients even until now...is 5:25am now and ppl are still wondering here. being 7+1 today...heard a few accident stories from patients. One of them terlanggar one indian drunk man, the indian's gang wouldnt allow this guy to go out of hospital till he willing to pay RM1000 to their friend..poor thing..this uncle stayed in hospital wouldnt dare to walk out and he even seek help from police and security guard in hosp...not quite sure how they ended this incident but luckily no fighting involve if not...they have to accompany us to do night shift as well *-* still have one more hour to go...after that i could hit my bed till noon...hehe

Wedding Ring

2009-04-20T13:16:00.000-07:00

Two of my friends will be getting marry this year...congratulation in advance for them =)
read this article few months back...thinking that it's good to post it up too...hehe just a simple sharing..believe or accept it or not it's totally up to you *-*

Why should the wedding ring be worn on the fourth finger?

There is a beautiful and convincing explanation given by the Chinese Legend...

Thumb represents your Parents
Second (Index) finger represents your Siblings
Middle finger represents your-Self
Fourth (Ring) finger represents your Life Partner
& the Last (Little) finger represents your children

Firstly, open your palms (face to face), bend the middle fingers and hold them together - back to back
Secondly, open and hold the remaining three fingers and the thumb - tip to tip
(As shown in the figure below):

Now, try to separate your thumbs (representing the parents)..., they will open, because your parents are not destined to live with you lifelong, and have to leave you sooner or later.
Please join your thumbs as before and separate your Index fingers (representing siblings)...., they will also open, because your brothers and sisters will have their own families and will have to lead their own separate lives.

Now join the Index fingers and separate your Little fingers (representing your children)...., they will open too, because the children also will get married and settle down on their own some day.

Finally, join your Little fingers, and try to separate your Ring fingers (representing your spouse).
You will be surprised to see that you just CANNOT because Husband & Wife have to remain together all their lives - through thick and thin!!

Please try this out...and tell me the outcome *-*

2009-03-04T03:20:00.000-08:00

Today has been a kinda great day for me...everything went on smoothly...no scolding, no argument, no hesitation in all field...that's why i dare to re-challenge my broken-heart by opening the most precious photo folder in my comp..looking at myself in those photo...giving the wonderful smile unselfishly to people around me...i was happy...i did captured those sweet moments with you...what's wrong with me? how come you dont even appreciate this? wondering what kind of med should i prescribe to my broken-heart..why cant tears clear my vision? why cant i let go totally and look from a higher ground for my better future...with God's greatest love and strength? ya im learning...i believe one day i can...

Foot Step

2009-02-12T10:14:00.000-08:00

It's Valentine's Day Eve...hehe im working at ED now till tmr 7am. Preparing a devotional material for this coming sunday...hmm will share with you guys later =)

Read this daily reminder from somewhere, ya though i long time didnt receive love letter..hehe but ya i would like to have one for my gracious heavenly Father. I love you, Lord

Dear Lord, I seek not just your blessings. These are wonderful gifts that you bestow on me because of your love and generosity. I seek your favor, presence, unfailing & never ending love. I need to know in every part of my being as I already know in my heart your great love and compassion that you have for me.

My life on earth is limited and you have given me more blessings than I could ever imagine. My list of thanksgiving is endless. Although I enjoy Your blessings which display to me daily, I seek Your presence. I need you desperately when I'm awake and when I lie down. I need you every single moment of my life.

Life is not a bed of roses but you are gracious, loving and kind. You reveal yourself to those who diligently seek you. Please remember me and see my desire to ever seek your face and determine to always know your will. I fail but you forgive and heal. I am in pieces. I am constantly being broken and you continually come and repair my distraught heart.

Give me wisdom also the never ending desire to obey you. You words are burned in my heart. “To obey is better than sacrifice.” My obedience is my life line to your perfect will.

My steps to your presence require my obedience and my never ending love which you have established in my heart is the key to this relationship. You have given me love, you have given me desire and you have given me passion. This passion to know you never leaves me. Although life is unpredictable and I am unable to comprehend its meaning. I truly know that all I have need is you. I love you.

Hear me, my Lord. My heart hurts my soul is overwhelmed. My feelings desire control but my intellect and will refuse to submit. Please have mercy… I know that you are a loving caring God of the universe. My spirit bears witness to your character by my feelings wants to feed on the rot of humanity. Please be my good shepherd. Help me to hear your voice. Lead me in the path of righteousness for thy name sake.
My physical discomfort is overwhelming. My voice is not heard but you alone hear me.

I will love you with every breath that I take because you are my God.

With lotsa HuGz,
Samantha (Your beloved daughter)
XoXoXo

Chap Goh Mei

2009-02-09T04:49:00.001-08:00

Happy chinese new year! It's Chap Goh Mei aka chinese valentine day..time flies did you remember how u celebrated this fest last year or even the year before? hehe of course i remember! the year before i was in UK celebrated this fest with my lovely housemates...last year i went to Taman Jaya with family...had my first experience seeing unmarried females and males tossing mandarin oranges into the sea with the wish to find a good spouse. wondering did anyone managed to find their true love through this traditional culture. hmm but this year...im celebrating at home...writting blog here...keke..it's last day of this chinese new year...have a blessed 'moo moo' year ahead~

It's a brand new year

2009-01-07T23:15:00.000-08:00

Happy new year 2009 to you, you and you! So "What are your new year resolutions?" it's the hottest question now...everyone is asking the same question. hmm wondering how would you answer this typical question with a realistic & creative answer...whether you have resolved to do something more or other less in this year, or you have decided to give this whole idea away since it's just another bored question for a new year after you've experienced the hard process to keep the your resolutions?

hmm hopefully i'll be smarter and more alert in 2009...i was working at emergency department yest 7am till 2pm. first time dispensing methadone at ED...it's kind of pack schedule for this shift...7-8am supposed to go leprosy clinic to dispense methadone, 8-11am at ED room, 11-12pm ward patients and 12-2pm back to ED counter. i couldnt find the ward while i was in d leprosy clinic...pa seinya...just kept on walking along the road...suddenly one car stopped and asked for direction...hmm of course i cant give any contribution but d old uncle and aunty did offered me a lift to find the place together...guess what i went into their car! aww felt scary when i saw d uncle made a phone call...thank God nothing bad happen in the end. the moral of the story is pls increase ur awareness regardless anytime, anywhere or to anyone. hmm i promise wouldnt let it happen again in future...no more no more! must use the common sense @-@

Merry merry X'Mas

2008-12-25T07:44:00.001-08:00

Merry Christmas to YOU!

True Meaning of CHRISTMAS

2008-12-21T00:44:00.000-08:00

[ Just a week before Christmas I had a visitor. This is how it happened. I just finished the household chores for the night and was preparing to go to bed, when I heard a noise in the front of the house. I opened the door to the front room and to my surprise, Santa himself stepped out next to the fireplace.

"What are you doing?" I started to ask. The words choked up in my throat and I saw he had tears in his eyes. His usual jolly manner was gone. Gone was the eager, boisterous soul we all know. He then answered me with a simple statement . . .

"TEACH THE CHILDREN!" I was puzzled. What did he mean? He anticipated my question and with one quick movement brought forth a miniature toy bag from behind the tree. As I stood bewildered, Santa said, "Teach the children!

Teach them the old meaning of Christmas. The meaning that now-a-days Christmas has forgotten. "Santa then reached in his bag and pulled out a FIR TREE and placed it before the mantle. "Teach the children that the pure green color of the stately fir tree remains green all year round, depicting the everlasting hope of mankind, all the needles point heavenward, making it a symbol of man's thoughts turning toward heaven."

He again reached into his bag and pulled out a brilliant STAR. "Teach the children that the star was the heavenly sign of promises long ago. God promised a Savior for the world, and the star was the sign of fulfillment of His promise."

He then reached into his bag and pulled out a CANDLE. "Teach the children that the candle symbolizes that Christ is the light of the world, and when we see this great light we are reminded of He who displaces the darkness."

Once again he reached into his bag and removed a WREATH and placed it on the tree. "Teach the children that the wreath symbolizes the real nature of love. Real love never ceases. Love is one continuous round of affection."

He then pulled from his bag an ORNAMENT of himself. "Teach the children that I, Santa Claus, symbolize the generosity and good will we feel during the month of December."

He then brought out a HOLLY LEAF. "Teach the children that the holly plant represents immortality. It represents the crown of thorns worn by our Savior. The red holly berries represent the blood shed by Him.
Next he pulled from his bag a GIFT and said, "Teach the children that God so loved the world that he gave his begotten son." Thanks be to God for his unspeakable gift.

Santa then reached in his bag and pulled out a CANDY CANE and hung it on the tree. "Teach the children that the candy cane represents the shepherds' crook. The crook on the staff helps to bring back strayed sheep to the flock. The candy cane is the symbol that we are our brother's keeper."
He reached in again and pulled out an ANGEL. "Teach the children that it was the angels that heralded in the glorious news of the Savior's birth. The angels sang Glory to God in the highest, on earth peace and good will toward men."
Suddenly I heard a soft twinkling sound, and from his bag he pulled out a BELL,. "Teach the children that as the lost sheep are found by the sound of the bell, it should ring mankind to the fold. The bell symbolizes guidance and return.

Santa looked back and was pleased. He looked back at me and I saw that the twinkle was back in his eyes. He said, "Remember, teach the children the true meaning of Christmas and do not put me in the center, for I am but a humble servant of the One that is, and I bow down to worship him, our LORD, our GOD." ]

"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16

Words of Affirmation

2008-11-16T07:54:00.000-08:00

Thank God for the affirmation ..reminding me once again about His precious and greatest love for me! "How wide, how deep, how great is your love, you love me..." though i was kinda packed during this weekend but ya i was glad that i could attend the DUMC Worship Conference 2008 on this evening after my ED shift. It turned out to a fruitful evening for me. YOU will always stay and will remain after the day is gone...for YOU are GOD alone! STAYING with me...ya im not alone...HE is making a brand new start for me..be smart-ask for HIS wisdom and guidances day by day.

P.S. will always keep "you" in prayer...i believe God has something far better for us. missing you too.

ZhiBi~

2008-10-27T02:23:00.000-07:00

" JUST WANT TO BE ALONE! " = Zhi Bi ? yeah finally zhibi gang reunited on last friday! hehe this gang was formed by anson tan, the group leader and 3 other members =) our precious friendship will lasts forever and so our zhibi gang spirit! went to pyramid for a great dinner at Gasoline...hehe as usual chit-chating, makaning...then we went to invest our second zhibi gang t-shirt! hopefully can take a group photo wit our second zhibi gang t-shirt soon...!

Long lost 'Darling'

2008-10-27T02:14:00.000-07:00

Thanks for the night out, darling! was glad to received your invitation msg to makan dinner...hehe =) hmm wondering how was your 'date' with Lam Fong on last friday...hehe...love ya!

Public Holz

2008-10-01T02:42:00.000-07:00

"Opps...I am late for a date!" Reached Reabox @ pyramid about 11:30am this morning...expected to be there about 11am...singing K session with my buddies today! hmm i was kinda tired on the way and even after i've reahed there.=( the mall was packed wit people since early morning...ya today is a public holiday! hehe Selamat Hari Raya...oh oh oh balik kampung~met a long lost friend in front of McD...hehe dont know why many youngsters and family took photo with him...and..so are we~pai seh..

Happy Burst-day -

2008-09-30T05:14:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 22th BIRTHDAY to Joyce de Jonah...hehe we gave her a surprise on last thursday at Chillis one utama =) a memorable one...thank you for the co-operation from all the HSB pharmacists!

Fairy tale?

2008-09-22T08:19:00.000-07:00

" The prince and princess then live happily ever after..." This is the typical happy ending of a couple in the fairy tale story. ya recently 2 friends of mine told me a great news...they will be getting marry next year! wow...i could sense their affirmation for each other throughout the conversation..it was amazing! They finally found someone to walk with them throughout their future path..the significant one =) As for the single and available gang, learn to pray for your future lifelong partner..according to my friend it worked! hmm for those who just found your signicant one...congrat and keep building it with God's love! I wrote this long time ago but yet i still wan to share again :

In a relationship you may think you know someone well, but they turn out to be just a stranger for you. Someone you treasure much but they just take you for granted. On the other hand, people you have never placed your eyes upon them; people you have never thought about; people you knew as passers-by in your life whom you thought never really left footprints - THEY suddenly become those you are most concern about. Thus, LIFE is just like a puzzle. You dont know what is going to happen in future and where you are heading to until you complete the final piece with His guidances. Do always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessings, not what you are missing in life. Life can be so WONDERFUL if you know how to live it to the fullest.

"Let God do the holding and you do the trusting." It's tough but at least im moving on slowly with faith..cheers *-*

Family Trip

2008-09-17T02:33:00.001-07:00

I had a quite tiring weekend last week but yet it was a memorable one. Tan's family went to Port Dickson on Saturday evening for one night stay at a "miserable" apartment...hehe at first thought we could stay at Avilion (5 stars hotel) but ended up with disappointment. We celebrated mum's birthday and the mid autumn fest together at night...really long time didnt play lantern and candles during this fest...my three brothers were busy decorating the apartment's balcony and me as usual busy snapping those memorable moments. Cant believe PD's sunset view is quite amazing too! The next day we gotta rushed back for my cousin sister's wedding at Park Royal Hotel. wow...that goes my weekend and this year mid autumn celebration!

In desert...

2008-09-03T05:40:00.000-07:00

This is what the LORD says— your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: "I am the LORD your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.

Many things happening recently...my heart becoming bitter each day and everyday i heard from others are only bad news or sad sharing. I hardly be joyful or cheer up...losing my direction. ya finally today is my first day as fully registered pharmacist but somehow things just didnt went well. At the same time, i sent you off in the midnight . I cant believe it...my life is in the transition state...everything seems new to me and im force to go on with it. I keep praying every moment when my heart is feeling bitter and i want to cling to GOD. Thank God for sending many angels beside me...supporting me throughout these few weeks..sending HIS words to remind me when there seems to be no hope in future. Im getting better...learning to trust in HIM. MY GOD will never fail!

The ice tour

2008-08-24T07:40:00.000-07:00

Finally...i made it for the Disney's High School Musical Ice Tour on tues night at Stadium Putra! Thanks joe for the accompany! The best part about the ice tour is to watch dance moves and songs made popular in the Disney's High School Musical 1 and High School Musical 2. It consist of a fusion of the best scene of both movies..hehe although i havent watch HSM 1 yet i knew! This song caught my heart on that night...like the lyric *-* (part of the lyric)

There was me and you

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside

I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale

A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
That's coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I can't believe that i could be so blind
It's like you were floating while I was falling
And I didn't mind cause I liked the view

Thought you felt it too when there was me and you

* waiting for HSM 3 movie..hehe it's coming soon!

Farewell

2008-08-15T20:28:00.000-07:00

Life has been moving real fast...it has been almost one year since i started work as PRP houseman at hospital sungai buloh. On thurs, we had a farewell with the whole pharmacy department...cant believe we are heading to FRP/fully registered pharmacist life!

Google logos

2008-08-15T08:49:00.000-07:00

Has Google becoming part of your online lives today whether is google search, google talk, google mail etc...hehe for me almost =) i'll find answers through google search..google anything and everything! well..i've noticed those creative, colourful and seasonal Google logos since long time ago...google's homepage displayed different style and themes of logos! wow...they even displayed the google logo related to olympic sport at their homepage during this olympic fever season! I went to google it and discovered a collection of official google logos. There are more collection : http://www.google-logos.com/. I kinda like the valentine's google logo with the grandpa & grandma in it...it was kind of symbolised long-lasting romance..could i request for a special google logo on my birthday? *-*

Unexpected..

2008-08-10T01:00:00.000-07:00

Went to pyramid for a movie "Meet Dave" yesterday...the Listerine mouthwash company had a booth located near by those tic selling counters ...offering a deal : let them snap your pic with a big smile on your face and you could get 2 free movie tickets "The Mummy 3" *-* pretty easy huh? hmm wondering what was their purpose? they simply want to collect 101 smiley faces to promote their latest listerine product *smart* they will choose 100 smiley faces pic from the pool and publish it as ad in magazine...hehe guess what I am of the lucky one!

Sam "Savior"

2008-08-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

hey cant imagine i would create a blog and become a little unexperience blogger. well first of all, welcome to my blog...hello to Sam's friends esp old long lost friends and a greeting to new friends " nice to meet you all!"

yap for most of my friends knew im a so called "IT blur" person...hmm means im not quite good in IT staffs...hehehe yet i want to share my pieces of life and let all of my loving friends keep track with me. well one day i was wondering what's the meaning of my name "Samantha" stand for...though is a rather common name but yet just out of curiousity...i went to google it...the result : "Samantha = a listener or teachable one" wow great discovery...sometimes we thought we knew ourself more than anyone else...not even your parents, your "significant one" , best friends could compare with it...yet personally i dont really like to intro or describe what kind of person i am to people cause just cant have a convince answer..agree? well i believe I was made by Him and will live for Him...ya my Heavenly Father, the everlasting God...He knew me more than anyone else.

The meaning of "savior" in french = "to know" (hopefully i didnt get it wrong) here you are...few photo to intro those who's crossing their life with mine..hoping our path will continue to cross in future with God's love *love you guys*

*Unending love, Amazing grace*