The hibernation~

Thank God for the long awaited holidays! I was on night shift on last monday and started my long holiday from 22/12/2010 till next year...wow was a contented and meaningful the whole last week. Worked as a voluntary for the 'Gift from Heaven' community project on wednesday..felt contented when u've serving the others and helped those needy...praise God for this precious opportunity and used me! Went to watched The chronicle of Narnia 3 with friend on thursday, attended a cell group celebration of a friend at night then rushed to a supper with church members..was a great experienced and received my very first few christmas presents! went to bangsar village purposely for the Tallest christmas tree in Asia (7 metres high and made using 850,000 Lego bricks) in the christmas eve afternoon..hehe attended a cousin's wedding at night. We had a great youth musical performance in church on the blessed christmas day...thank God there were 7 individuals accepted Christ as their saviour during the altar call! wow what a precious gift! schedule has yet come to an end..taught children sunday school on 26/12/2010 and had a youth meeting till almost evening then rushed for a buddy's gathering till night. Thankful for wonderful and gracious week...though it was tiring and time flies but i experienced God's accompany everyday! Finally i started to clean up my messy bedroom and preparing to welcome a new beginning and renewal of everything in the new year yesterday! hmm what a great feeling today once i woke up and found out my bedroom looks different! bought a few christian living-related books today and had a pretty comfortable sharing with a friend during dinner time. so so so...what's next for tmr schedule? hmm planning to have self-retreat the whole day and need to attend a youth bbq gathering at night...praying for a fruitful one and really have to spend more time with God and seek for the renewal of everything in this long break...hehe very excited and just wanted to leave a post in today *.* A blessed christmas to YOU and remember we are the reason for this season...cheers!

幸福在轉角

今年我们有个圣诞音乐会，主题是：“你，听到了吗？”

而我必须唱这首歌。当我第一次听到这首歌时，感觉上它是唱给我听。。我破碎的心再也不可被伤害，我真的很累了。圣经说：“爱里没有惧怕，爱即完全就要把惧怕除去。”这也是我天天祈求神的力量，医治和更新的，谢谢主你的安慰！

主，求你让我们用從天父而來的愛 把懼怕挪開 發現幸福在轉角與我们相遇 一瞬間 這世界變的好美。。。只因为你先爱我们！ 而我。。。听到了！

我想這世代的確是缺少了很多愛, 很多人都怕付出了卻受傷害吧
但是我們基督徒有從神而來的愛 我們可以付出不用怕受傷
所以放膽去愛吧 從身邊的人開始
讓每個角落都有愛 你的一个小小的关心和拥抱能有你想像不到的能力！

愛可以再更多一點點

我可以擁有全世界卻沒有愛 我可以明白所有事卻還是空白
我可以用信心移山卻還是孤單 這世界沒有了愛 一切仍是黑白
不要埋藏在心裡 把愛說出來 不要默默在一旁 把愛活出來
喔愛 可以再更多一點點 不怕被傷害 把靈魂鎖起來
愛 可以再更多一點點 從天父而來的愛 把懼怕挪開
發現幸福在轉角與你相遇 一瞬間 這世界變的好美

My 23rd Day

I was tired physically and spiritually today..read my devotion today and would want to share it here..

KNOWING GOD'S WILL

''Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small ids the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it." Matthew 7:13-14

God has a will or a plan for each one of us. He knows what is best for us, even beyond our own expectation for ourselves. God doesn't want us to miss His plans for our lives. However, when we follow our own desires and ignore His will, we are not following what is best for our lives and we end up hurting ourselves, and sometimes the loved ones around us as well.

It may seem easier to ignore God's will, but it is a false path-a lie that Satan would like us to believe. In our lives we have found that it isnt as hard to know God's will as to do God's will. The knowledge seems easier than the action. By reading God's letter to us and by asking Him to show us His way, we can see that God wants only the best for oour lives. then we need to move out on faith in that direction. If we meet detour along the way, we just detour and keep on moving in the right direction. God's will is not always a straight line; sometimes there are curves in the way. Just keep on moving.

What to Pray For

I asked for a bread and got a stone;
I used the stone to grind the grain
That made the flour to form the bread
That I could not obtain.
Instead of asking Him to give
The things for which we pray,
All that we need to ask
From God isthis : Show us the way.

Father God, help us to have a discerning spirit when it comes to knowing Your plan for our lives.
Give us stregth, comfort and wisdom to study instructions for our time here on earth. Our prayers will bring us into contact with You and Your Holy Spirit. Thank you for being so concerned for us that You have a perfect plan just for us. Amen.

Micah Challenge 2010

10.10.10, hmm what a special date! What's your plan on this special sunday? Ever heard about the MICAH challenge 2010 (10.10.2010)? It's a call to encourage christians everywhere to join the Micah's 2010 campaign. It's a way to gather all sons and daughters of Christ to speak out what is on God's heart.

"To do justly, to love mercy and do walk humbly with our God.." Micah 6:8

My church will print out the Micah's campaign tee and will organise a morning prayer meeting on 10.10.2010 to get into this meaningful campaign! Let's raise our hands for the poor, as YOU have shown us your heart!!!

Third Day of September

Since 3 years ago...the third day of september is the day i wouldnt be looking forward to...hoping this year will be different and purposely took half day off to stay at home..but believe me life didnt go according to the plan. Finally, unforgetable events happen again today! how come...is it coincidence? hmm how i wish could just skip it..should spend time to place everything in the right track again...pray hard and learn to be obedience..going to sleep early today as need to wake up about 3 plus morning to climb Broga Hill to watch SunRise! A brand new day for tomorrow...amen *-*

Mightier than ALL

SANCTUARY

When my world was in darkness
You spoke Your word
Night turned into day
Your beauty filled this place

When my world stood in silence
You filled my heart
With songs that never end
Forever I will praise

To think that the universe
Could not withhold Your glory
You choose to live in me
I'm so amazed

(and) I worship you lord
My life in You restored
Here is my heart
Make it Your sanctuary
For nobody else
But Jesus only (You)

You are faithful and true
Glorious lord
All my life
It is You I adore
You've touched my soul
Completed my world I surrender to You

The very first time i heard this song in a sunday service in UK about 3 years ago..it was like a prayer and desire deep in my heart...reminding me that my Heavenly Dad is so gracious and mighty. Im just not worthy for HIS unfailling love and attention but He has chosen me as His precious daughter since i was so young..im blessed to called HIM as Abba Father! I was reminded that I have Someone to turn to. He is the LORD, "Who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think" for He is greater than all of our troubles. ya thank God for restoring and renewing my soul, walking with me daily...do teach me how to love You and the others, lead me in Your righteous ways, follow & obey Your words daily! More like YOU I desire to live and grow...

Read this article before departure to Kuching in June 2010,it's a good article from facebook, it reminded me that life is a learning process... would like to share with my beloved friends...may it'll be meaningful to you as well...still a long way to learn...


一个苦者找到一个老人倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
老人说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
老人让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
老人说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

你可能觉得难过
因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情
他不是看不到他只是装作看不到
或者他根本不想看到
你觉得自己很喜欢他
甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他
你用尽全力对他好
把他看的比自己还重要
有什么事情第一个就想到他
联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了
然而你有没有想过
这并不在你的责任范围
而且很有可能他是在躲着你
他受不了你对他那么好

不要一直发短信给他
不要一直找他
你也许只是想找他说说话
你觉得那很正常不算苛求
但是也许他并不这么想
记住你的想法不代表他的想法
你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗
你扪心自问一下
你确定不用他回报什么吗
那为什么你会难过
若是真的一无所求
你又怎么会觉得难过呢
所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的
也许他根本不在乎你怎么为他付出
有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担
这种负担只会让他更加想远离你
因为他不想亏欠你
别事事为他担心为他张罗
你觉得他没有你不行
你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
但是你要清楚
你不是他要的那个人
你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
那个位置本来就不是你的
你何必硬要挤上去呢

你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
喜欢他不是你的错
想关心他不是你的错
控制不住自己不是你的错
但是那是你的方式
人家不一定就能接受你这种所谓无私的爱
所以如果你喜欢他他不喜欢你
那么就请你默默的
别试图让他知道
就算你会难过甚至难过的流泪
就请你默默的
就算是逼自己也好
一定要忍着

傻孩子．
忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．
那些．都已是记忆．
缺失并不可怕．
可怕的．是无法面对．
傻孩子．
你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．
付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．
绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
那里．有你的理想．

傻孩子．
开始新的习惯吧．
习惯．每天一个人生活．
习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．
你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
现实是．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
这也是你．成长中的你．
这个你．正在逐渐死去．
新的你．即将重生．
找寻你的路．你的未来．
你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．
好．好．尽情发泄吧．
剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
泄完了．就要振作．
看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
所以．你并不孤独．
正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．
别哭．别再哭．
不值得．真的．不值得了．
把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．
生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
现在的生活．不是你想要的．
为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜……
当某天，你被伤害，想起我。那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的对你好了……
因为那时的我，已经将你放低……
原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的...

My heart is aching all the time...it's painful...what shd i do? is there anyone care bout it out there? cant sleep well almost every night...help me please!

I will be there

I Will be TheRe

I will be there
and you can cry on my shoulder
when the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you

And I will be there
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be there

Sounds like a song lyrics? ya this is one of my favourite song : I will be there by Steven Curtis Chapman...first time heard this song in a fren's wedding...wishing one day my significant one would sing to me...when u like it, just have no explaination!

Wat an unconditional promises and love...wondering 'life happily ever after'' still belongs to me? maybe i shall wait patiently for the right one...so when we finally meet, i know how to be grateful..i have no idea how, when and where...but i know when i meet him, God will assure me it's him...i will know deep in my heart..still waiting for the one who will sing this song dedicate to me as his promises and love to me one day, im praying for that day to appear in my life chapter and healing power towards my broken heart now! take away all the soreness and heartache.

Dear Father God, no matter what comes into my lives now, i know YOU have screened it so that your daugther is capable of handling it. Pray for your mercy and love to strengthen me...'Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart'...im sure Father God hears my prayer. Amen. From your daugther, Samantha

Cat City

Happy Holiday...it's wesak day today...staying at home alone now watching astro on demand..though tmrw is saturday but gonna work 8am till 5pm =( was kinda excited...cos i'll be attending a Respiratory Conference at Kuching, Sarawak end of next month! wowo...google-ing the Cat City and cant wait to fly over there to meet up friends! =) Thank God for the arrangement...giving me a 'short holiday' to East Malaysia! Heard they said the accomodation provided it's a 5 stars hotel...hehehe...hoping for more better tmrw to come! gan bar teh tmrw!

Stomachache, feeling unwell, irritable bowel movement, vomitting, spasm...i've been experiencing all these symptoms almost 6 months...keep coming on and off these year...went for blood test & ultrasound at hosp it seems im perfectly fine and healthy...ya i am! the cause of those suffering still remains mysterious! finally i've made a decision to go for colonoscopy and endoscopy...tmr is the day! i need to admit to hosp to do this so called 'simple'procedure..this term sounds familiar which i've used it thousand times to consult my patients...saying that everything will be fine and have no worry at all for your health condition. but believe me...not this time for myself...ya playing the different role now as im the one who nd to undergo all these. gosh do believe me didnt hav good rest since last week..spending times thinking wat actually happening to my poor stomach and intestine? hoping tmr will be a great day, i'll be on sedation during the procedure and wishing could sleep well during the procedure...will get a positive result after that...hmm hoping the diagnosis is just regular irritable bowel syndromes...it's time to hit the bed and face the reality tmr. now i understand more bout the definition of 'loneliness' no one could really accompany you or help you in this situation...helpless..with my fear but ya just HIM, my heavenly Father..im sure HE'll be watching me throghout the whole procedure! ^-^

Finally, you are gone! Back to where you're belong...to start your desired lifestyle and new chapter of life...the path you've choice since few years back..may the Lord bless you and keep you, and be gracious to your future always!

Be MiNe, BiRthday

23/02/2010 is a great day! hehe just wanna post a simple yet meaningful birthday greeting *-* Be MiN3, HaPpY BiRthday>>

WORLD VISION! What u could do..?!

Child sponsor changes life! passed by a World Vision booth at Tropicana shopping mall yesterday...pay a visit for the photo exhibition and talked to one of the world vision's volunteer regarding on this monthly child sponsorship. I've heard this quite some times ago...praying that one day if i could earn money i would want to support those children...i knw i couldnt contribute my time to serve them personally but ya still hope by sposoring RM50 monthly could at least improve a little in their current lifestlye out there! Finally thank God for the merciful heart of HIS, i've decided to sign up a child sponsorship for a little gal! I felt i'm entering another chapter of my adulthood after this decision...couldnt believe God uses the ordinary me to bless them. Thankful for this partnership with HIM...hehe waiting for my little 'daughter' details information from World Vision admin staff! Let's do something to changes life!

New Year Resolution

Today is the very first sunday worship service of this brand new year...received this msg from pastor..hmm wanna practise this CROSS in my life! hopefully it could motivate u as well...cheers!

C.R.O.S.S

Consistently Express

Regularly Encourage

Obendiently Avail

Supremely Serve

Selflessly Share

HAPPY 2010 New Year

Happy 2010 New Year to you!!!

01.01.10...it's the time for a new beginning & dawning of new hopes!!! Thankful for this wonderful moment!